meaning of Christmas

What is the meaning of Christmas to me:

1) To celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ
2) Time to get together with family members and friends.
3) The warm, peaceful and lovely atmosphere.
4) A great opportunity to share the good news to the others.
5) The Cheerful and Happy Mood
6) Meaningful Christmas Songs, Caroling and Hymns
7) Giving and Receiving Christmas Presents and Greeting Cards
8) Christmas Tree, Christmas decoration and ornaments, Christmas Light and Candles
9) It is a Public Holiday
10) A White Christmas (which I have yet to experience it)
11) The Christmas Dinner, cookies, cakes and other tit bits (yeah!)

Practice

Take out some bills from your wallet and hold it in your hands. Look at it and just be with it. Say to yourself that you love money and money loves you. Feel good about it and feel the love for it. Do the same with your credit cards, your jewelries, your checks, your back account statement, and things that represent money. See all these things not as separated from you, but they are all extensions of your being. The more you love money and are at one with it, the more you attract it into your life.

I in love ... with WEALTH!

My mom used to tell me that when you love money, it can be the root of all good or all evil. That all truth are half truths and the glass can be half empty or half full. So she said I had to see things one way as well as the opposite. Same applies for money. When you love money, that love is the root that can grow into that which is good or evil. So do you get what I mean? I'll always remember what she said by hard.

And when I grew up, I adopted a negative way of mind. I used to be rather succesful in what I did when I was younger but due to sheer ignorance, wealth came and went in a circle. I guess the attitude that time was too negative and I regarded it as evil. Until Marie Callas came along, she made me realise the importance of having right concept.

To be one with something is to love it, accept it, embrace it and be completely comfortable with it. Money being a form of energy that facilitates enjoyment and providence is a form of wealth. Therefore to be wealthy is to be one with money and to love it, accept it, embrace it and be completely comfortable with it. Money moves to the one who loves it the most!

Blessings

Wow I'm really in happy mood recently. No idea why just feel that life is beautiful with my loved ones around me all the time. Truly a great blessing to a man of my age. Everyday I live with expectation and fervour. I try not to let my brain stop functioning by doing gardening, reading, meditating and exercises. In this way, you'll forget about your physical age and you'll love at life with pessimism.

In a way, marie callas helps me to tune my life to the brighter side but its all up in my brain really. With Ruth's help, we spend time together working things out in a harmonious way.

Thank you kindly for all the times you have spent writing to me. I do know that you are really trying to help me. Ruth is a kind lady, that way she say a cat being knocked dead by a car and she cried for hours over the little life lost. It just shows her personality.

Give a smile

Things are not going that well last one week or so. We always get into disagreement. The congeniality that we had earlier seemed to have vanished. I guess the honeymoon period is truly over. Sometimes when things are not going that well, your mood sways up.

I read on a magazine that a simple tip to defuse such tension is to give a smile when things are going bad. You may think it is impossible but sit up (or stand up) shoulders back and smile. Watch the world change in front on you. What was bleak is not so bleak. In fact nothing is as bleak as you think it if, if you just smile. Try it. Give her a sincere apology and things will be back to normal again.

Sometime we guys just have to give way.

A Good Day

Have you ever wondered why sometimes everything in your life just flows beautifully, and sometimes, no matter what you do, nothing seems to fall into place?

So if your life at the moment is flowing beautifully, be SO grateful for every moment of it. If, however, you're having some challenges and frustrations, just remember that one day you will be looking back at this time thinking "if I only knew what wonderful surprises were waiting for me, just around the corner, I would have relaxed a little more, and enjoyed the journey".

Have peace and love..

Know what you want

Folks, one of the most important things to take care of is to be aware of what exactly you want to achieve. When you know what your dreams are, then you can focus your efforts so as to achieve them.

If your intellect desires one thing, and your heart another, then that quite simply produces internal conflict. In such a case there could be two contradictory intentions which are shaping the actions of a person. This produces procrastination, indecision, and ineffective action.

So got to establish the answer to what you really want, then you come up with goals which are in harmony with all your levels of being. And when you do that, you are ready to display a focussed intention. This allows for decisive, effective action, and thus for the most efficient attainment of your goal.

Be appreciative

I think this phrase 'thank you' has lost its appropriateness. People are not feeling appreciative or warm to the feel of it. It just that mundane thing to hear someone saying "thank you" to you sometimes.

Let me explain more.

Words are powerful stuff and when our words affirm what is good, what is right in our world, they solidify that goodness into reality. Do not underestimate the power of your spoken word. Worlds and universes are created from this magical process. Notice that in this realm, in our reality, we are the only known beings to transform thought into a spoken language.

So have more appreciation next time when someone does you a good deed. Reply with a big smiling thank you!

Sometimes we still have those thoughts

I admit I haven't posted in a while. Away from computer and net busy helping Ruth to settle into her new house. She just shifted to another rental unit as her previous tenant decided to sell the house, so she's got to move. Distance to her place is slightly further now, however, the positive side of me says that is okay as I got the time to walk further as a form of working out.

Always hoping that life would be better the next day, hoping that I'd be able to write something cheerful as time went by... But life sometimes has got both sides of the coin and that's inevitable. I just got to weigh it on the shoulder and look at life with optimism rather than angst.

Sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up...I know it's bad but just can't help it. Luckily for me it's just a passing thought that goes away after a few minutes.

Happy with Marie Callas

I'm really pleased with Marie Callas prediction on my life in the next few months. She said I would be expecting big things in my life and some windfalls. Spiritually I can feel it coming in my bones and that is because I have been faithfully doing what she's taught me to do ever since I know Marie.

Come on, if you don't believe in me, it's ok! It's a choice whether you wish to read on. This is just a tribute to Marie Callas for her fantastic help to me. Faith is always important and if you don't have any faith, things won't work out for you no matter how promising they are.

Personal mentor

During school days, I used to study real hard for my exams, hoping that I can really score well and bring pride to myself and my mom. We were poor and many richer kids sort of look down on me and that makes me feel very bad somehow but my mom kept encouraging me. That's why I'm so grateful to her.

I remember well when I was studying for exams, on one hand, I was really motivated and kept on munching on the books and i told myself "I must get a good grade for this exam", but on the other hand, my little mind kept pulling me down by saying "I'm dumb, and I won't do well." So you know what's the outcome. I studied well enough however, the results turned out to be disappointing and I just managed to scrape through after two attempts. It was so sad then.

But now thanks for Marie Callas, I understand why.

People are not aware of this constant exercise in their mind to pull them down the water and they have no clue how to change it.

So I support the idea of having a personal mentor. That person must be someone more successful and knows what life is all about. The mentor can also be someone discerning, or even a book that tells you what the real deal in right mental approach. The whole purpose is to make your mind work for you instead of against you.

What the mind tells me repeatedly

When I was young, I was labelled as "dumb" by my maths teacher. That stigma sticks with me dearly, even till now! I think that is a very common childhood nightmare, especially for the older generations.

So in a way, when someone told you that you are "dumb" back when you were a little kid, your mind started to record that "FACT", and every time you remembered that incident your mind records that exact same "FACT" again. And when you made a mistake and forgot something at home, or when you missed an appointment, or any of the things that made you call yourself "dumb" - your mind just proceeded to record that fact again.

So there's actually a vicious invisible cycle of bad affirmation going on in our subconscious. From here, constant repetition on that "fact" to your mind, has ingrained a belief in it that you are in fact "dumb".

Yes it sucks. It makes me feel less confident throughout the growing years as this little voice inside keeps saying I'm not clever. And sadly I believed in that and even when I tried to fight back, I did not know how. That's the living tragedy facing many people.

Your mind is the subconscious

The reason why so many people who actively try to succeed fail is actually inside of their mind. What does this mean? The answer to this is that "your mind is working against you".

Let Marie Callas explain more.

It is said that we use between 5 to 10% of our brain. This percentage pertains to our conscious. The other 90 to 95% is our subconscious. Your mind is your subconscious.
You mind cannot differentiate between reality, imagination, and memory - to it every one of those is an actual thing that is happening in the NOW (there is also no sense of time, again it is all in the NOW).

Your mind also can't differentiate between sizes meaning your mind "thinks" $1 or $1,000,000.00 in your bank is the same. How can that be you ask?

Your mind works simply in this way, it is a monitor, a recorder and a counter of the things that are happening (in reality, in your imagination, or in your memory, what ever you are paying consious attention to).

All that being said, your mind dedicates itself to recording what it "perceives" is going on.

Universe - a source of Pure Energy

The Universe is a great source of pure energy. It is always in constant motion, and each celestial body has its own fixed rules and path to orbit. Everything is in an amazing physical order. How can humans ever understand what Force makes the Universe always in perpetual circulation? There has got to be a Higher Intelligence governing its entirety.

Which is why the Universe has been called the Higher Being, Infinite Mind or even God! We have no idea how large it is, even though we have seen stars from millions of light years away and have absolutely where it is expanding to. All these are total mysteries which are not able to explain using normal human intelligence.

Psychic Marie Callas say one of the most fascinating spiritual law is the Law of Attraction meaning the infinitesimal Universe will give us what we yearn for, because everything that we yearn for is made of something from the Universe. We simply must align ourselves to our desires using the Laws Of Attraction.

Despite the great advances in science, there are still many of us who do not know that the law of attraction although we know about the laws of Physics, laws of Chemistry, and the microscopic world of atoms and molecules. People are not aware of the mental and spiritual laws that govern our very existence!

Change your egoistic beliefs

As has been mentioned over and over again by many great spiritualists and psychics, to benefit from the law of attraction, people must ignite their subconscious mind through concentration, repetition and harmonising to the environment.

However, most people are not able to do that because our mind is a complex store of broken dreams, negativities and undesirable habits. Some of these habits are inculcated in us since young or from our upbringing while some are learned behaviour when we reach adulthood.

Psychic Marie Callas says that our thoughts, our feelings, our deepest beliefs are the keys that link us with the Law Of Attraction. That is to say we must first break through and overcome the negative thought patterns and beliefs that we have.

Well, the problem is humans are resistant to change because the conscious mind once it has firmed up on its root of thoughts is tough to get unrooted. One example is your personal ego. Some people have very strong conscious ego so how can it be easy for these people to change their habits and thought pattern so that it aligns with the Universe?

Another good example is the belief that commoners like yourself cannot get rich. Richness is only for some fortunate people. Marie Callas has said this is one of the worst thoughts a person can have. If this person wishes to rich one day, he or she will face a lot of difficulties if deep rooted disbelief that they cannot get rich is not replaced by positive belief that they can get rich. Once the mind starts believing that richness is possible then a person can set off to the road of wealth.

This is what I aim to do. To have a sense of firm beliefs that I can be rich one day. It is never too late in your life to feel that way, no matter what is your age. Universe abundance is for everyone instead of some selected people.

Universe is fair to everyone

I was talking to one of my neighbours while I met to the nearby store to pick up some groceries. We walked home and we shared thoughts about life.

I told him this Universe is fair, everyone has a chance, no matter how young or old you are.

Next he asks:

"While it seems nice to agree with it, if the universe really has no favourites....Why are some people born into poverty? Why are some born blind? Why are some born with disease?"

I understand he has some personal difficulties but who hasn't? That's why he is rather antagonistic now. It's how you pick yourself up that matters.

I gave him a shrug and told him.

"The circumstances that you are faced with doesn't really matter. It's how you look at them. If you think you are going to die because of some problems, then you will die, but, if you view at it as you'll have a story to tell and to tell it you need to live, and you'll live to tell the story. Circumstances are all the same, mate".

So the universe has no favourites- but it does have balance. You hear it everyday about people who surpass all odds who make it when everyone else does not. Is the universe playing favourite with them or are they viewing their life as different?

Worth a good thought about it.

Visualising for Love

One of the most powerful emotions we have is the power of love. Love can give us joy and happiness. It invigorates and motivates us to work for the person we care and love. When you feel loved, your body will release positive chemicals and attract more good things into your life.

That is what's happening to me with Ruth, the woman I love at this moment. We are ever so closed and we have grown to be inseparable and loving, even though we are already in the 50s. She's a blessing from Marie Callas and God. Everything we are really happy and forthright to each other as we learn from the mistakes of our previous marriages.

It's really amazing. You will receive what you thought of, if you are hungry enough. I yearned for a woman and I met one. If you are single and looking for love, just follow me by visualising your thought, in as much detail as you can. How that person looks like, how would you call that person? Imagine just as if you already have that person. Write down in a piece of paper that person's traits, as much as possible.

It works, believe me, because thoughts are universal energy. Just have faith, and some day, you will really meet that person in your paper.

5 Spiritual Blockages

Five states of life that you may like to improve on.

Spiritual laziness - when you feel like meditating or doing some spiritual practices, you will give yourself excuses to do it later, like maybe i shall take a short nap first, watch this TV program first, or any other excuses you may think so to "justify" your decision.]

Judgment - I begin to conclude that I don't like this person, that friend, my teacher, my colleagues and even myself! And I get easily affected by things or actions made by this list of people.

Doubt - You have growing self doubt about yourself and ability. You feel you are stupid and less clever compared to other people and you don't think you can win over this inner doubting monster of yours. You feel your life is a big waste of time and you are not making grades in life.

Craving - Well, it's simple, you find yourself more and more drawn to things that are more "exciting" or "interesting" than the tasks in your to-do list.

Restlessness - Your mind races and you cannot concentrate. You start remembering things you need to do. You have bills to pay, errands to run, calls to return and you have no time for anything else right now.

Psychic is not against religious belief

Since Marie Callas is a psychic, maybe I should clarify this common thinking that becoming psychic is against religious beliefs.

It's just old school of thinking because everyone has psychic powers. I believe that our source power or source energy comes within. Even in the bible a verse resonated with me. I cannot remember it word for word, but it was something like "Does he not know the lord lives within him". I take that to mean that my source energy is within me not in a church or in a rock. The bible even talks about a psychic at great length, ever here of "Joseph", you guessed it. He was a psychic and if it was fine way back then, it's fine now to become psychic.

Learn from your Past

We can always look at our lives as a great story. The past with its triumphs and troubles can be seen as a necessary part of the story that brought us to this moment. Through these ups and downs, we learn and we gain.

It’s often assumed that our past, our yesterday is just something to get over. We discard yesterday as dead and gone. However, these lessons are gifts from Heavens, mean to test and train our characters. But only if we can see it in a positive way and raise our life through the lessons we have learned.

Only you can answer yourself this question: What have I learned from the past so that I can really move on to the next level of life? Think about it, no matter your age, you can derive something meaningful and apply to it. So let’s focus on the positive themes in our lives, including the positive ways that we’ve overcome challenges.

Nature

Nature is beautiful.

Every element in nature serves a critical purpose on this earth. The link between the components that make an ecosystem is strong but the bond is weak. A minor tweak in the system can cause havoc and even catastrophe.

I just so sad that people are disregarding this fact and our nature has been so ravaged that one day the whole system is going to crumble or the ever increasing human demand is going to destroy our planet once and for all.

Take for example, it is said that the total fish quantity can only supply our demand for sea food for about another 20 to 30 years. Isn't that scary to know?

Just as nature needs its elements and resources to maintain that balance, we humans have found many ways of harnessing and using them for our very survival and everyday life. So far we have been taking so much without giving back the returns, I think we need to assign more Earth Days per year to create more awareness to more people that importance of environment and nature.

Positive v Negative People

Optimism is synonymous with positive mood and good morale. It is also linked to successes in athletic, academic, career, business, better health and lasting relationships. And further more, positive individuals are much more attractive to people than negative people!

Negative people tend to react strongly to stressful events, sometimes by denying that stress is bothering them. Negative people tend to react strongly to stressful events, sometimes by denying that stress is bothering them. Moreover negative or pessimistic people tend to avoid dealing with their negative situations and they give up more easily when problems or difficulties arise.

Positive people are also much more stress resistant. They are perseverant and they don’t give up easily. And it is in this way that they seem to get closer to their dream or passion each step of the way. Medical research has shown that positive people have better health and they age well. All in all, when you are not such a positive and optimistic person, there is every reason to learn to become one. Remember it is all a matter of choice!

Let’s get back on track! Focus a clear positive goal ahead of you and challenge yourself to see difficult situations as opportunities, instead of allowing them to bring you down. Together, we shall see each other at the top

Overcoming doubts in your mind

Doubts can quickly swallow a person's new found belief and faith. When doubt sets into his mind, the defence to fight against this enemy will determination how strong this person is mentally. If he is strong and has such impregnable faith, he will be fine but if the belief is weak in foundation, a shaky ground will allow doubt to devour the building in a short while and this may result in serious consequences.

Our mind starts racing and starts drawing conclusions and ideas from anywhere and everywhere. The majority of the time we have no idea if there is even validity in our thoughts, but we keep letting them work in our minds anyway. For example, many people doubt about Marie Callas' ability as a clairvoyant and whether she is able to promise what she has said.

To overcome doubt, first, we need to set our mind on hope. Hope is a feeling of what is wanted will happen, a desire accompanied by expectation, or to want. Once hopeful thoughts begin to enter our minds, anything can happen. Our perceptions and attitudes begin to change and we start to see the world, our selves, our friends, and our family differently. We are no longer confused and unfocused by thoughts of “What if” or doubt, but thoughts of possibility.

Lastly, moving from doubt to hope involves a change of mindset. This may mean that old habits need to be stopped or that a new habit needs to be implemented. What mindsets do you need to change? How can you begin to harvest hope instead of doubt? Having a mind of abundant hope is intoxicating. Begin to live this way today!

Self confidence

I met an old friend yesterday while strolling at the city centre with Ruth and he asked me whether Ruth was my wife. I told on straight that when I marry her, I'll invite him to the ceremony! He had a good laugh. I think my self-confidence really rubs off to the people around me recently. Once a person has self-confidence, anything is possible. Marrying her is a big possibility, and it's definitely in my plan because Marie Callas said this year I would encounter something 'blissful'.

Believing in oneself and have firm faith in your own ability and traits. Of course that does not mean got to be stuck up. I'm never a stuck up person, but I guess my attitude towards life was wrong previously that's why things have remained mouldy all these years. Marie Callas has taught me to be different and confident in fact.

I'd like to mix more with people with self confidence that's the best way to improve oneself isn't it? Once your mind starts to focus on that, your thought will emit the signals and soon you'll get what you want.

Yellow

Today I wish to write something about my favourite colour, yellow. Do you know that each colour has some meanings in spiritual terms? There is different meaning to each type of colour.

Yellow symbolises the capacity of human benigs to be lucid and aware. The vibrations of this bright shade support imagination, crreativity and mental development. It is also the symbol of the cosmic element of the air as well as the powers of concentration, knowledge, attraction and persuasion. Useful for performing rituals aimed at winning over an individual, egetting a job and achieving social status and detaching yourself from a place or a person.

New feel

Being free over the weekend, I took some hours to self-learn some simple html and css editing so that my blog is not that stagnating in feel. Now it looks more pleasing and appealing to the eyes, do you think so?

I think I really enjoy making my blog looks better. But one thing's for sure, remember to back up the previous set of files before it is being overwritten.

Pretty good for a 50 over man, ya?

Next phase of life

Being bold, I 'm not ashamed to write here that my relationship with Ruth has become so well that I'm thinking of proposing to her. I'm not sure how her grown-up kids will feel to have a step father. Marie Callas has really predicted with fairly accurately result. She said I'd be meeting a lady and thinking of moving to the next phase of life with her.

Need clarity in life

Recently, I felt moody. Ought to be happy about the events and Ruth, however, the energy seems low all the time. It's as if I have been hit by a spell that makes me unaware of the spiritualness of myself. I think I may be suffering from some mild depression, hope not as I try to control myself from being negative. I just need to motivate myself and be cheerful about what life has given me so far. That will make me more sober I guess.

Faked proteins

Rather lazy to boot up my computer. It's not giving me any thrills due to its bad behaviours. Log in to this blog and check the past post... gosh, it's 14th May, nearly 10 days have gone by. It's amazing. Perhaps I should write more, maybe?

Recently, I read a news article that the pet food manufactured in China contains 'faked proteins' called melamine and that will kill your pets gradually and silently. As a dog lover, this got me alarmed as adding melamine would give the illusion of a higher protein content in the pet food packs and those unscrupulous companies can maximise their business profits. I've nothing against them, but I think the Chinese companies are turning to be the scourge of the world.

Commit my day

I am a spiritual being. After this body is dead, my spirit will soar. I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I will be drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by my love for myself and others. I will be influenced only by goodness.

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. To these I commit my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will try again. And then when this day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest.

Fasting

I'm doing a one-day fast by following the instructions given by Marie Callas, can you believe that? This is also the first time I'm doing that... Actually it's Ruth who suggests to do a fast because she reads that it can revitalise the bodies. I check Marie Callas book and she says the same thing too. It's fascinating as all the while I assume fasting takes away energy but now its the opposite apparently. According to Marie Callas, fasting is a form of purification and it burns wastes to rekindle the hidden energy. The body will be cleansed of its toxins and clear mental pollution. Its like bringing back to the younger years.

Bad computer days

My computer is still not stable. The harddisk light is on all the time while the whole machine seems to slog it so slow that it takes more than 5 minutes to open the IE browser. The whole bootup process takes more than 15 minutes when it takes about 4 minutes usually. Clicking on the 'start' button and the menu takes some minutes to show up! What's going on??? I don't have money to buy or change anything...

Computer ...ouch!

It's some days since last post even though my intention is to try to write something everyday. It's got me off the pace somehow and I need to crank up my momentum once again. Yesterday was the Labour Day and I had a fun day with Ruth. We are getting closer and it's a happy feeling. I feel I have gotten rid of the bad temper that frightens off my ex-wife and now I feel more at ease and congenial towards ladies all thanks for Marie Callas sermons about leading a happy life.

The old computer my neighbour gave me in March, ermmm, unfortunately, is showing some signs of strains last couple of days. I don't really know what's the problem, just that there is a loud beeping sound each time at the starting up process. It's intermittent, meaning sometimes I can power up, sometimes I can't and I got to restart it a few times before it can run. Man.. this is really funny and I did ask my neighbour and he was clueless too, saying it's probably due to the motherboard. It's really too much for me because I don't have much knowledge about computers as I'm a ex-finance guy who is better looking at spreadsheets than technical specs.

Letter

Marie Callas has sent me her latest letter. I read through it briefly and put it down to one side. While I have no doubt that she heals me spiritually since I got to know her, I shall give this product a pass for this time. I still feel I have enough blessings from her before I need another one.

I am also happy that the small misunderstanding between she and me has been resolved. Lucky! Because it could have been beyond salvage. Through this, we know each other better too. The confidence is growing gradually too.

Recently. there's nothing much to blog about as I'm concentrating more of the time hoping to find some odd jobs to spend me time. I'm good in mechanical stuff like machines and motors and I wish to spend my time better rather than passing day by day.

My belief in Marie Callas

I got to know clairvoyant Marie Callas 6 months ago when I received an airmail in which she offered me a free talisman. As we began exchanging letters, I felt more and more of her great psychic powers. Marie Callas even predicts the periods that will dawn on me and tell me about them. Should she sense danger she will also give me her talismans and other advice. I feel calm and secure that there’s someone watching over me from afar.

That is why Marie Callas has such a great calming effect in my life. Everything I do, I feel would have an insight for that. Therefore I'm always carrying her talisman with me whenever I go. I know her talisman would give me lots of luck and charms.

Mind in a twirl

Feeling not that good now. My mind is in a twirl.

Ruth was actually back yesterday morning but I receive no calls or sms from her. It was only when I tried calling her that I knew of her already back. It made me wonder what's my standing in her heart. What shall I do to test her out? This problem is like a 16 year old teenage boy's dilemma, it's a joke that I got to go through it at my age.

In the phone, she told me she was tired and she was evading my questions by giving vague answers. Finally I gave up when she said she was tired. C'mon, please give me a sign, Marie Callas!

Lonely weekend

I’m bored. Normally when I'm bored I will blog a bit or surf a bit. I don't really particularly like to use computer or what, I prefer to play with Flinch or watch some TV. There's no way I can seat in front of the computer for 3 hours. It is still rather alien to me despite its prevalence everywhere.

Ruth had gone to visit her relatives for a few days in the east coast. One of her nieces is getting married. So, I reckoned that it will be even more boring for me throughout the weekend. I guess ’ll be at home all alone this weekend. I'll read some Marie Callas stuff and practise it or give the dog a bath.

Highly spirited

Things continue to grow at a whirlwind pace. I have even helped Ruth in her gardening job at some nearby estates. She's is a pleasant lady who does not have airs and her temperament suits mine near perfect. With her around, I feel I am gradually picking up the confidence that has fizzled down the drains in the past years. The nightmare of all elderlies is being lonely in their advancing years and now I have purged that nightmare off my mind. I wish to treasure this relationship for the remaining years of my life. I have confidence Ruth feels the same as me too. I can't really say enough of thanks to Marie Callas for helping!

Happiness in the air

There is happiness in the air because my relationship with Ruth has improved a lot over the last couple of days even to the extend of feeling rather shocked myself. Maybe I had been used to the loneliness that's why and never had I felt so invigorated. It is as if something above had sent me from a place that is full of loneliness to a place where there's more more loneliness. For this I got to thank Marie Callas as she's the one who tells me not to give up anymore but have faith in her ability to help through through the testing periods. I nearly forgotten that I still need to maintain this blog and gosh, it's a pleasure to blog about this.

Do you mind....

Easter is near and I'm inviting Ruth to go to the church for a spiritual and repenting session as an act of faith. This is my yearly must do since I married my ex-wife. I still follow this practice ever since we divorced and I usually have a nice chat with her at the church. We are friends but we seldom meet as she's busy with her own family too.

Ruth is a divorcee too but she is working as a gardener for some wealthy families to man their gardens and it's a laborious job I gather. But she's cheerful type and regards that as her daily exercise, don't you think it's a positive way of looking at a job?

I'm seeing her at the park later and wish me luck too as this is the first time I going to invite her to somewhere else.

Dear Marie Callas, I'm happy!

No posts from my the past few days but I was very happy. My soar throat has nearly recovered and I'm clearing it by drinking some Chinese herbal drinks I bought at the supermarket. Well, it has been sometime since I was so happy. The lady I met at the park, Ruth, and I have really become good friends. We almost met everyday for a couple of hours. We really have a lot in common and talking to her is natural and enjoyable. I'm thinking of inviting her to my house for a visit maybe. I wonder how she feels about it. Thanks Marie Callas for your help! This is really my wish.

I'm a retiree and now I read that our PM Mr Howard wants us to work longer till late 60s. Many netizens are unhappy with him now because this concept is very alien to this country. It's very difficult for employees to find a job once they are old, it's the same everywhere, therefore I wonder what is really in the mind of the politicians nowadays.

I met her again

Today my soar throat got much better and finally I could hear my real voice although it was still a bit dry there. Maybe because I've been filled with loneliness for some years and I was determined to change it. I've been thinking about that lady who chatted with me at he park at night. I hope my thought waves are reaching her!

At the late afternoon I pulled Flinch and walked in the direction of the park again but somehow I felt my heartbeat was getting heavier. It seemed like Flinch and sense it too and he wagged his tail heavily while looking at me with anticipation.

Well, my thought energy must have reached her mind; she was there sitting at the same place reading a book. The presence of Flinch somehow help because she saw the dog first and then realised the owner was me!

From then on, it was another afternoon of joy. I even have her email and numbers.

Marie Callas, I have to thank you.

Strolling at the park

My condition has improved slightly I think. I could barely talk yesterday night but now the voice is clearer. The burning sensation is still there at my throat though. Yesterday I visited my doctor and it cost me nearly $40!! It's so expensive nowadays and in return I received 4 types of medicines. These medicines have strong drowsy effects and in the end, I dozed like a pig for the whole afternoon!

So I spent some free time (I'm free all the time LOL) walking in the parks nearby or venture further down to the beach to feel the freshness of the sea breeze. My dog Flinch absolutely loves this type of outdoor strolling and I'm happy he's my great buddy. Well, along the way, I managed to strike up a conversation with a lady somewhere in my age. We had a long chat sitting at the bench there near the park. It'd been a long time since I had such a good chat despite my soar throat.

It has been a blessing from Marie Callas I guess for she has predicted I would meet someone who I could get along sometime this month. How accurate she's been!

Getting worse

Hate to begin the post negatively, but it's just not getting better. My throat is so soar and dry now that I have problem swallowing food and drinking water. The process is quite torturous and never in my mind had I suffered such bad case.

The throat sweets off the pharmacy are useful and I guess I've no choice but to pay the doc a visit. You know I hate to do that.

Yesterday I heard that there was a house break-in case somewhere down the street where I live. It had been badly ransacked and the owner is inconsolable. Why so such things happen to good men all the time?

Soar throat

You guess it, I've got a soar throat and that really irks! Now I can barely use my voice and I have problem eating food too. Opening my fridge, I can see I have some strepsil sweet left that can help me. I try to drink as much fluid as I can and I was supposed to meet a mate later in the afternoon for a coffee so how am I going to talk to him now?

Flinch is barking non stop outside the door and I wondering what's going on! I'm going to take a look at him to check out what's going on because it's giving me mild mental disturbance.................

There is a police car with 3 police guys somewhere down this street and I'm not sure what's happening, it must be some family affair stuff which is common in this area. I think I'm going to take a rest again, this useless old man!

Feeling sicked again

The weather is really dry last few days and I feel like I'm going to be sicked again. Throat's slightly inflamed and I know there are no good signs. Maybe I'd been getting too much fried food at the same time. Docs have told me not to consume too much of those but the loneliness in life has turned me to get those worthless stuff like chips and wedges again. Of course a couple cans of beers will make life that much more better.

My gosh, my throat's really feeling drying now and I am going to get some water. I'm such a messy person and that's the reason why my health is not good because I seem to care about it myself.

Need love

Since my divorce with my wife years ago, I've been living all along myself and it's really lonely most of the time. I'd love someone to come into my life so that I can experience some love again. But before that I need to be sure of myself as this is no joking matter. I realise that at this age, companionship is more important than any others and it's not a ride where you can simply disembark and choose another 'train'.

Maybe there are some agencies that specialises in matching-making for guys in the 50s like me who are lonely and looking for a life companion. I don't want to be dining along most of the time. The feeling is awful and that's hurts that feelings a lot. I think I will go out and be confident again to know someone new.

I pray that Marie Callas can help in this area too. And I've heard testimonials from others about Marie Callas helping them to find love of their life.

A thought

This morning I woke up feeling great. Never had I had such wonderful feeling in the morning. Human minds are that special. What you think you will be and you will turn out to be.

While taking my breakfast, I saw a news report inside the pages. The first question that came to my mind was why in the mist of truth we can never see what's right? When does reality catch up with our false world we create. It's really sad that such thing will happen and once exposed, it is going to be irreparable.

After self-reflection, I realise I shouldn't be.....

After a night of reflection, I came to a conclusion that I shouldn't wallow in self pity anymore. Stop feeding myself with the poisonous ambiguity of life. My mind has been intoxicated by bitterness of yesteryears and if I don't invigorate myself now, I'd fall into the pit of depression.

Thanks to my dog, Flinch, for showing this meaning to me. He's pulled me out from the pit. He never gives in so why should his master give up? Thanks to Marie Callas too. You are the last person who can council me now.

From now on, I will force myself not to think of the negativities of life. That will be tough because it's years of poison in my mind. But I know I can do it and be cheerful like those happy people around. When I feel cheerful, chances will open for me.

Writing to Marie Callas for the 6th time

Suddenly, I just picked up a piece of A4 paper and started to write again to Marie Callas. Do you think I'm insane? The weather is cold and I just can't keep my mind still that's why I write to her again. I think this is my 6th letter to her again and I know she reads it. I also really wish she can reply to me. Am I dreaming?

Since last night, I'd been down with flu again. My health is getting worse I feel, not helped by the dropping temperature. Luckily I learn about blogger and I can blog besides writing to Marie Callas. My faithful dog, Flinch, always lays besides me. He's a great dog. But I have some panadols in the drawer and I will take a couple of tablets later. I'm tired of doing to docs because it is expensive and there's always a queue.

My house is a shelter of my soul. I do have some good friends but how much warmth can they give to a fellow old man? Life is lonely because I've got no one to talk to except seeing the four walls. Suddenly I miss my ex wife too. It's my fault that she went away. I'm so sorry. I really need some spiritual lift, Marie Callas, please help me.

My health has been poor

My health has not been good all the while. Sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night grasping for airs. Why is that so, Marie Callas? I'm rather scared about it because one day maybe I won't be able to wake up in the morning. It is for this reason why I always say thanks to God for giving me a new day whenever I wake up. It's just the reason for showing that gratitude.

Luckily, I have Marie Callas. I write to her regularly whenever I feel lonely spiritually. She's has provided a lot of spiritual solace in my life. I know she reads my letters and she's immense power to help people like me to turn to brighter side of life. I truly thank Marie Callas for everything she has promised. Marie Callas even corrected predicted that I have poor health all along and to get better, i'd need some of her spiritual powers that she would send to me. I'm already feeling a bit better ever since I make contact with her. I can feel that.

Thanks Marie Callas.

Lost my job

Ever since I lost my job 5 years ago, due to poor health for that matter, livelihood has been tough for me. I feel lonely too because my wife has left me 3 years ago and I don't blame her for her action. Once in a while, she visits me or I visit her, as a friend. I do miss the good times I had with her. I'm not sure what's the reason for my poor health. I just now I get tired easily and sometimes I feel that my legs don't have energy to carry me around. It's just so exasperating if you have a life like that. Doctors I consulted have not been able to help much too plus the fact that the money I need to pay the docs is big amount and I might as well use that to pay for my living expenses.

Neighbour gave me an old computer!!

Yesterday was a happy day for me. Finally I got a computer. I didn't bought it but it was given to me by my very kind neighbour. I'm truly great to know them as friends. I have often wanted a computer, but I'm very poor. My savings had been spent on my medical treatment yet the worse thing is I still have not recovered. I feel like a half alive man.

Well, this computer is not fast, but it works just nice for me to learn more about internet. At least I don't feel that lonely from now on. Before this if I wish to use internet, I use it at my sister's house but she lives far and I don't travel there often.
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Thanks Marie Callas and God for this gift from heaven.