Need clarity in life

Recently, I felt moody. Ought to be happy about the events and Ruth, however, the energy seems low all the time. It's as if I have been hit by a spell that makes me unaware of the spiritualness of myself. I think I may be suffering from some mild depression, hope not as I try to control myself from being negative. I just need to motivate myself and be cheerful about what life has given me so far. That will make me more sober I guess.

Faked proteins

Rather lazy to boot up my computer. It's not giving me any thrills due to its bad behaviours. Log in to this blog and check the past post... gosh, it's 14th May, nearly 10 days have gone by. It's amazing. Perhaps I should write more, maybe?

Recently, I read a news article that the pet food manufactured in China contains 'faked proteins' called melamine and that will kill your pets gradually and silently. As a dog lover, this got me alarmed as adding melamine would give the illusion of a higher protein content in the pet food packs and those unscrupulous companies can maximise their business profits. I've nothing against them, but I think the Chinese companies are turning to be the scourge of the world.

Commit my day

I am a spiritual being. After this body is dead, my spirit will soar. I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I will be drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by my love for myself and others. I will be influenced only by goodness.

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. To these I commit my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will try again. And then when this day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest.

Fasting

I'm doing a one-day fast by following the instructions given by Marie Callas, can you believe that? This is also the first time I'm doing that... Actually it's Ruth who suggests to do a fast because she reads that it can revitalise the bodies. I check Marie Callas book and she says the same thing too. It's fascinating as all the while I assume fasting takes away energy but now its the opposite apparently. According to Marie Callas, fasting is a form of purification and it burns wastes to rekindle the hidden energy. The body will be cleansed of its toxins and clear mental pollution. Its like bringing back to the younger years.

Bad computer days

My computer is still not stable. The harddisk light is on all the time while the whole machine seems to slog it so slow that it takes more than 5 minutes to open the IE browser. The whole bootup process takes more than 15 minutes when it takes about 4 minutes usually. Clicking on the 'start' button and the menu takes some minutes to show up! What's going on??? I don't have money to buy or change anything...

Computer ...ouch!

It's some days since last post even though my intention is to try to write something everyday. It's got me off the pace somehow and I need to crank up my momentum once again. Yesterday was the Labour Day and I had a fun day with Ruth. We are getting closer and it's a happy feeling. I feel I have gotten rid of the bad temper that frightens off my ex-wife and now I feel more at ease and congenial towards ladies all thanks for Marie Callas sermons about leading a happy life.

The old computer my neighbour gave me in March, ermmm, unfortunately, is showing some signs of strains last couple of days. I don't really know what's the problem, just that there is a loud beeping sound each time at the starting up process. It's intermittent, meaning sometimes I can power up, sometimes I can't and I got to restart it a few times before it can run. Man.. this is really funny and I did ask my neighbour and he was clueless too, saying it's probably due to the motherboard. It's really too much for me because I don't have much knowledge about computers as I'm a ex-finance guy who is better looking at spreadsheets than technical specs.