Spiritual experiences

I've been doing lots of spiritually stuff since Marie Callas talks to me and I feel like I've started to come quite a bit now on my way to enlightenment. I've studied and it has changed me a lot.

I can, for example, via meditation, get to a super-happy state. I get this feeling of not being here and this world is not what it seems. Simply put - I can turn myself info the now almost 100% and stop almost all my thoughts for a very long time. Not whole days but many hours at least.

On a spiritual level I know this is a right choice. It will only keep me up, aiding any success in the higher plane. But, on the other hand, my ego self is going completely nuts over this. "come on, why worry so much!. What's wrong with being what you are now today!!"

I have this gut feeling... I know I will reach enlightenment pretty soon if I follow my heart and do the right choices....

I find myself ripped between these two emotions. Have you guys had the same experience with enlightenment and physical training?

Are you bound to a life without training when seeking enlightenment?