I met her again

Today my soar throat got much better and finally I could hear my real voice although it was still a bit dry there. Maybe because I've been filled with loneliness for some years and I was determined to change it. I've been thinking about that lady who chatted with me at he park at night. I hope my thought waves are reaching her!

At the late afternoon I pulled Flinch and walked in the direction of the park again but somehow I felt my heartbeat was getting heavier. It seemed like Flinch and sense it too and he wagged his tail heavily while looking at me with anticipation.

Well, my thought energy must have reached her mind; she was there sitting at the same place reading a book. The presence of Flinch somehow help because she saw the dog first and then realised the owner was me!

From then on, it was another afternoon of joy. I even have her email and numbers.

Marie Callas, I have to thank you.

Strolling at the park

My condition has improved slightly I think. I could barely talk yesterday night but now the voice is clearer. The burning sensation is still there at my throat though. Yesterday I visited my doctor and it cost me nearly $40!! It's so expensive nowadays and in return I received 4 types of medicines. These medicines have strong drowsy effects and in the end, I dozed like a pig for the whole afternoon!

So I spent some free time (I'm free all the time LOL) walking in the parks nearby or venture further down to the beach to feel the freshness of the sea breeze. My dog Flinch absolutely loves this type of outdoor strolling and I'm happy he's my great buddy. Well, along the way, I managed to strike up a conversation with a lady somewhere in my age. We had a long chat sitting at the bench there near the park. It'd been a long time since I had such a good chat despite my soar throat.

It has been a blessing from Marie Callas I guess for she has predicted I would meet someone who I could get along sometime this month. How accurate she's been!

Getting worse

Hate to begin the post negatively, but it's just not getting better. My throat is so soar and dry now that I have problem swallowing food and drinking water. The process is quite torturous and never in my mind had I suffered such bad case.

The throat sweets off the pharmacy are useful and I guess I've no choice but to pay the doc a visit. You know I hate to do that.

Yesterday I heard that there was a house break-in case somewhere down the street where I live. It had been badly ransacked and the owner is inconsolable. Why so such things happen to good men all the time?

Soar throat

You guess it, I've got a soar throat and that really irks! Now I can barely use my voice and I have problem eating food too. Opening my fridge, I can see I have some strepsil sweet left that can help me. I try to drink as much fluid as I can and I was supposed to meet a mate later in the afternoon for a coffee so how am I going to talk to him now?

Flinch is barking non stop outside the door and I wondering what's going on! I'm going to take a look at him to check out what's going on because it's giving me mild mental disturbance.................

There is a police car with 3 police guys somewhere down this street and I'm not sure what's happening, it must be some family affair stuff which is common in this area. I think I'm going to take a rest again, this useless old man!

Feeling sicked again

The weather is really dry last few days and I feel like I'm going to be sicked again. Throat's slightly inflamed and I know there are no good signs. Maybe I'd been getting too much fried food at the same time. Docs have told me not to consume too much of those but the loneliness in life has turned me to get those worthless stuff like chips and wedges again. Of course a couple cans of beers will make life that much more better.

My gosh, my throat's really feeling drying now and I am going to get some water. I'm such a messy person and that's the reason why my health is not good because I seem to care about it myself.

Need love

Since my divorce with my wife years ago, I've been living all along myself and it's really lonely most of the time. I'd love someone to come into my life so that I can experience some love again. But before that I need to be sure of myself as this is no joking matter. I realise that at this age, companionship is more important than any others and it's not a ride where you can simply disembark and choose another 'train'.

Maybe there are some agencies that specialises in matching-making for guys in the 50s like me who are lonely and looking for a life companion. I don't want to be dining along most of the time. The feeling is awful and that's hurts that feelings a lot. I think I will go out and be confident again to know someone new.

I pray that Marie Callas can help in this area too. And I've heard testimonials from others about Marie Callas helping them to find love of their life.

A thought

This morning I woke up feeling great. Never had I had such wonderful feeling in the morning. Human minds are that special. What you think you will be and you will turn out to be.

While taking my breakfast, I saw a news report inside the pages. The first question that came to my mind was why in the mist of truth we can never see what's right? When does reality catch up with our false world we create. It's really sad that such thing will happen and once exposed, it is going to be irreparable.

After self-reflection, I realise I shouldn't be.....

After a night of reflection, I came to a conclusion that I shouldn't wallow in self pity anymore. Stop feeding myself with the poisonous ambiguity of life. My mind has been intoxicated by bitterness of yesteryears and if I don't invigorate myself now, I'd fall into the pit of depression.

Thanks to my dog, Flinch, for showing this meaning to me. He's pulled me out from the pit. He never gives in so why should his master give up? Thanks to Marie Callas too. You are the last person who can council me now.

From now on, I will force myself not to think of the negativities of life. That will be tough because it's years of poison in my mind. But I know I can do it and be cheerful like those happy people around. When I feel cheerful, chances will open for me.

Writing to Marie Callas for the 6th time

Suddenly, I just picked up a piece of A4 paper and started to write again to Marie Callas. Do you think I'm insane? The weather is cold and I just can't keep my mind still that's why I write to her again. I think this is my 6th letter to her again and I know she reads it. I also really wish she can reply to me. Am I dreaming?

Since last night, I'd been down with flu again. My health is getting worse I feel, not helped by the dropping temperature. Luckily I learn about blogger and I can blog besides writing to Marie Callas. My faithful dog, Flinch, always lays besides me. He's a great dog. But I have some panadols in the drawer and I will take a couple of tablets later. I'm tired of doing to docs because it is expensive and there's always a queue.

My house is a shelter of my soul. I do have some good friends but how much warmth can they give to a fellow old man? Life is lonely because I've got no one to talk to except seeing the four walls. Suddenly I miss my ex wife too. It's my fault that she went away. I'm so sorry. I really need some spiritual lift, Marie Callas, please help me.

My health has been poor

My health has not been good all the while. Sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night grasping for airs. Why is that so, Marie Callas? I'm rather scared about it because one day maybe I won't be able to wake up in the morning. It is for this reason why I always say thanks to God for giving me a new day whenever I wake up. It's just the reason for showing that gratitude.

Luckily, I have Marie Callas. I write to her regularly whenever I feel lonely spiritually. She's has provided a lot of spiritual solace in my life. I know she reads my letters and she's immense power to help people like me to turn to brighter side of life. I truly thank Marie Callas for everything she has promised. Marie Callas even corrected predicted that I have poor health all along and to get better, i'd need some of her spiritual powers that she would send to me. I'm already feeling a bit better ever since I make contact with her. I can feel that.

Thanks Marie Callas.

Lost my job

Ever since I lost my job 5 years ago, due to poor health for that matter, livelihood has been tough for me. I feel lonely too because my wife has left me 3 years ago and I don't blame her for her action. Once in a while, she visits me or I visit her, as a friend. I do miss the good times I had with her. I'm not sure what's the reason for my poor health. I just now I get tired easily and sometimes I feel that my legs don't have energy to carry me around. It's just so exasperating if you have a life like that. Doctors I consulted have not been able to help much too plus the fact that the money I need to pay the docs is big amount and I might as well use that to pay for my living expenses.

Neighbour gave me an old computer!!

Yesterday was a happy day for me. Finally I got a computer. I didn't bought it but it was given to me by my very kind neighbour. I'm truly great to know them as friends. I have often wanted a computer, but I'm very poor. My savings had been spent on my medical treatment yet the worse thing is I still have not recovered. I feel like a half alive man.

Well, this computer is not fast, but it works just nice for me to learn more about internet. At least I don't feel that lonely from now on. Before this if I wish to use internet, I use it at my sister's house but she lives far and I don't travel there often.
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Thanks Marie Callas and God for this gift from heaven.