Need clarity in life

Recently, I felt moody. Ought to be happy about the events and Ruth, however, the energy seems low all the time. It's as if I have been hit by a spell that makes me unaware of the spiritualness of myself. I think I may be suffering from some mild depression, hope not as I try to control myself from being negative. I just need to motivate myself and be cheerful about what life has given me so far. That will make me more sober I guess.